- Friday!!
Finally! Woot! Had an outrageously good time last night. Me an Kev went to the Thunderbird, drank many free drinks, met Josh, Ursala and Tamara, then to Images and Pegs. Ursala decided she's bi and spent the evening trying to get all up on my jock. Yeah, coulda called that one weeks ago, lol.
Met some other bi girl named Bethany at Pegs. Danced, chatted and got cock blocked by Tmobile Mike, that skeezy bastard. All good tho. Think she was a tad skeezy herself, so they should be happy together, lol. Tonight we're hittin Donnys, tomorrow is the Annie Lennox concert and Sunday is the big gay boat ride. Should have some good stories for ya come Monday!
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
- Happy Homo Dance!
I got ticket to Ani! Neener neener neener!
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
- lose the use of your dominant hand OR your sex drive?
- have to suck on 40 altoid mints, one after another OR have an unknown dog lick your tongue?
- find the remains of the missing link OR proof of a coming ice age?
- see the SWAT team pull up to your house OR the HAZMAT team?
either leave your answers or a link to your webpage with your responses.
- Would you rather:
Sex drive. Either would result in my having no sex life to speak of, but if I keep the use of my hand at least I can still play guitar ;)
Ew. Mints. I've seen what dogs lick. Lucky bastards.
Missing link. So as to piss off the fundies.
SWAT team.
- Mornin all!
Feeling much better today. Still a teensy cranky, but not on the verge of homicide anymore. Yay!
Forgot to set my damn alarm last night, so was late. Icks. Only a half hour tho, so could be worse. Short days this week due to the holiday. Boo ya! I gotta say, I do dig the Fridays off, but the 10 hour days suck hind end sometimes. Leaves ya like no time to get shit done ya know? But since I have oodles o time this week, I decided I'm gonna clean out my basement and get rid of all the useless shit I have piled up down there. Every other room has been gone through (while packin the ex's shit), but the basement is a freakin mess. So there ya go. my goal for the week.
Monday, July 05, 2004
- Drunk
Yes yes I am. Don't blog drunk often. Makin an exception. As I did with the no drinkin at home rule. Cuz ya know, sometimes it sucks. Define "it" as you will, I define it as life, lol.
Went campin with the girls this weekend. Was really really cool. cept for my state of mind. Which kinda fucked things for me. My ex left me on the 12th of July. Our 5 year anniversary woulda been the 15th. I didn't really think I'd have a problem with that, but I do. Its not that I wish I was still with her. I don't. She's a mess. A coke head and a liar and a cheater. But I do miss my future. I miss looking ahead and making plans and being part of a whole. I miss her the way she was, not the way she is. And sometimes I miss the way I was. Things have changed so much. I've changed so much. I'm not entirely comfortable in my new skin. I do dig it more than the old one, it just doesn't seem to fit so well.
So I left camp a day early. Just cuz I couldn't quite deal. I love the girls and they never make me feel like the 3rd wheel, but seein them together smarted a lil. And being at camp reminded me so much of being in MO with Krys and her family, and I just couldn't. Deal. And it pisses me off, because I should be able to fucking deal. Been a year eh? Fuckin deal with it.
And then I come home and text Ama (cuz she said Thursday lets go to dinner and say bye) and she says she's seeing someone. And she never thought she'd miss Pittsburgh. And ya know what? Fuck you Ama. And while I'm at it, fuck Karen and fuck Jess and fuck Jill and fuck all you all. I'm so fucking glad I could be your inbetween. So glad I could span that fucking gap for you. Have a great fucking life. Been so nice knowing ya.